What Do I Desire?

This video goes along with my "Be Happy" post. This video is awesome and is so true! A perpetual cycle of chasing the almighty dollar. If you love what you do then the rest will fall into place. The world is changing and we can't continue the same cycle. Look where it has gotten us now. I'll leave it at that for now because I could go on :)

What Do You Want to Be When You Grow Up?

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If you've read a few of my blog posts and perhaps follow me on Twitter, you have gathered that I'm not fond of my current place on employment lol!  Last year I completed my Masters and since then (well even before then) I'm like on now what?  I've been job searching off and on.  I've stumbled on a few things that have sparked my interest and others I'm like meh *shrugs*.  I envy those people who know what they want to do.  At times I feel like I have no clue or can't really articulate my "dream job".  Sometimes I feel that other than achieving a personal goal, that getting my Masters was a waste of my time and money.  I want my next job move to be a strategic one and not taking another job for the sake of taking one.  My current one was strategic because it put back in the sector I wanted to be in and has given me some lengthier experience on my resume.  But clearly it's time for me to move onward and upward.

When I graduated undergrad I didn't have a clear idea of what I wanted to do either.  I applied for jobs and wasn't getting any real bites.  My Mom was like why don't you try temping.  I gave that a go and I had some assignments that I really liked and others that left a lot to be desired.  There was one assignment that made the light bulb go off for me.  It was a long term assignment in the nonprofit sector.  I was there for a little over a year and I really enjoyed what I did there.  It was one of the reasons why I got my Masters in nonprofit management and leadership.  Since I left there I've tried to find similar positions to that one.  I even recently applied to a job there but of course I didn't get it.  Also while I was completing my Masters I stumbled on an subject area that really interested me and ended up doing my final research paper on the topic.  Again I've been searching for jobs around this area and there have been more misses than hits.  There are portions of my job here that I do like but I can't fully delve into like I want to for various reasons.  So I guess I have a rough idea of what I want to be when I "grow up", I just need to flesh it out a little more.

Stay tuned...

Neglecting Me

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We all get caught up the daily happenings of our lives.  We all wear different hats and try to juggle many things. While doing this you may stop and realize hey I'm neglecting me!  You keep putting of doctor's appointments, you eat more fast food because you're on the go or don't have time to make something that may be a little better for you.  Or you get a rut where you don't care and get kind of lazy.  Well for me it's a mix of all of the above.  I've put of making various doctor's appointment when my azz knows that something is wrong or that I need to go for routine check ups.  I let other people transfer their crap to me and then I get all frustrated and stressed out.  This is more so work related stuff  but there's some family stuff thrown in there which is touchy (and a whoooole 'nother post all together).  I had been doing good with working out and trying to eat a little better. Some things here and there have thrown me off.  Well good people I need to stop neglecting me!  If I do then I won't be here long.

One of my favorite stand-up comedy movies is Martin Lawrence's Runteldat.  At the beginning and end he says ride the m'fer until the wheels fall off.  He's taking about life.  You only get one shot at it.   Yes you will encounter your trials and tribulations but in all things there's a lesson to be learned.  Take it and run with it.  Don't get caught up in the dumb stuff.  I have to remind myself of this allllll the time!  You have to learn to take the good with the bad.  That's life.  Of course we want everything to sunshine and roses.  I guess it can be depending on your outlook and how you handle the various seasons of your life. *ques Dixie Chicks' version of Landslide* LOL!

On Facebook one of my friends posted that she had a recent health scare and needed to rethink on some things and start taking better care of herself  I saw another friend comment that she takes off two days out of the month for "mental health" days.  Lord knows we all need days like those.  I can honestly say since I've been working I've never taken a real vacation .  I take days off here and there.  Usually it's to do things that I don't have time to do over the weekend.  Sad I know.  Again I need to do better and stop neglecting me.  I've make some doctor's appointment's that I've been putting off.  I've gotten back to working out this week, I made a small grocery store run, going to continue with purging and organizing things.  So slowly but surely I'm going to do better taking care of me.  If I don't do it then who will?

Until next time folks...

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How do you...

shake the feeling of being a failure? Of worthlessness? Of serving no kind of purpose? It seems like no matter what I do lately, I just can't win/get ahead. I'm at home and I feel this way. I'm at work and I feel this way. I know that there are people who are far worse off than I am and that I should just shut up. I should count my blessings (which I do each and every day). I am not trying to sound ungrateful by any means. And I know that even people that love what they do in their jobs/careers/personal lives have their days of frustration. It could be the case of restlessness that I'm feeling all around and I just don't know or what I want to do next.

Ok enough whoa is me....Carry on good people.

Until the next post......

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Riddle Me This...

With the ups and downs of today's economy and the fact that no one's job is guaranteed do people who currently have jobs have the right to complain about how unhappy they are?  I ask this because I am one of those people who does have a job.  Now I have been on the other side where I have been laid off and was on underemployment (which I fought tooth and nail because I just knnneew I would fight another job in  no time).  Now let me just say that I am thankful everyday that I have a job that allows me to take care or my wants and my needs.  However I am very very unhappy in my current job for various reason that I won't go into.  For those of you that follow me on twitter you have "heard" my rants LOL!  I have been looking for a new job but of course with the current state of the economy people aren't hiring as much as they used to.  Also looking for a job is a job in itself that you have to crave out time on a regular basis to do. 

I remember seeing on Twitter or Facebook someone post something along the lines that how being in a position where you are pretty much miserable is a hindrance (not sure if this is the right word I'm looking for) to you as well in terms of your overall mood, physique  and even your health.  I can say that yes I do my work but I'm just going through the motions.  I am at the point where I don't care.  Now my job isn't one where someone's life is on the line but still this is not me at all!

Another thought that has come to mind and I've seen various articles about how since companies have had to tighten their boot straps so to speak that when and if the economy does turn around they are going to continue to to more with less in terms of staff and resources.  So where do that leave people when it comes to jobs?  I'm currently working on my masters (almost done wooohoo).  Throughout my coursework there have been times where I've been like why am I doing.  Of course this thought would come at like 2 in the morning when I'm trying to finish an assignment lol!  I have various personal and professional reasons as to why I wanted to go back to school.  I've even contemplated getting a second masters.  Not going the doctorate route.  Nope not gonna happen!  I've questioned as to whether or not is this going to benefit me when I've know people who have the education and the experience and they just can't find work.  It's kind of a scary thing to think that you put in work and effort to make yourself "competitive" in the job market but in the end it may not be enough.

Ok I think I've rambled enough :)