What Do I Desire?

This video goes along with my "Be Happy" post. This video is awesome and is so true! A perpetual cycle of chasing the almighty dollar. If you love what you do then the rest will fall into place. The world is changing and we can't continue the same cycle. Look where it has gotten us now. I'll leave it at that for now because I could go on :)

I think I'm a hoarder...

(Courtesy of Microsoft)

Ok sooooo...

I'm in the process of purging some books. I'm an avid reader and at one point I was buying up books like crazy. I still have authors I purchase books from but I have slowed down considerably on book purchases. Then when I was in grad school I didn't have time to read like I wanted to. Now that I have the time, I'm kind of  "overwhelmed" with trying to get through the books I have.  It has kind of taken the joy out of reading. I'll sit and contemplate what I'm going to read next. I stare at books or think on what I want to read and come up with nothing.  This sense of  "being overwhelmed" can be said with other items I have.

Now I know I'm not as bad as some of the people who do appear on the show Hoarders. I do frequently give stuff away, donate items and pitch things. At times I feel it isn't enough. I shouldn't feel overwhelmed by the items that I have. Don't get me wrong I am very fortunate and very blessed to be able to  purchase the things I want. I guess I'm getting to the point of asking myself is it too much? Are you enjoying these things or  are they burden of sorts? I guess I'm in downsize mode and instead of it being a liberating process, it's kind of stressing me out.

So I guess I have an inner hoarder/pack rat... -____- Well I want her gone! *stomps foot*

What Do You Want to Be When You Grow Up?

(Courtesy of Microsoft)

If you've read a few of my blog posts and perhaps follow me on Twitter, you have gathered that I'm not fond of my current place on employment lol!  Last year I completed my Masters and since then (well even before then) I'm like on now what?  I've been job searching off and on.  I've stumbled on a few things that have sparked my interest and others I'm like meh *shrugs*.  I envy those people who know what they want to do.  At times I feel like I have no clue or can't really articulate my "dream job".  Sometimes I feel that other than achieving a personal goal, that getting my Masters was a waste of my time and money.  I want my next job move to be a strategic one and not taking another job for the sake of taking one.  My current one was strategic because it put back in the sector I wanted to be in and has given me some lengthier experience on my resume.  But clearly it's time for me to move onward and upward.

When I graduated undergrad I didn't have a clear idea of what I wanted to do either.  I applied for jobs and wasn't getting any real bites.  My Mom was like why don't you try temping.  I gave that a go and I had some assignments that I really liked and others that left a lot to be desired.  There was one assignment that made the light bulb go off for me.  It was a long term assignment in the nonprofit sector.  I was there for a little over a year and I really enjoyed what I did there.  It was one of the reasons why I got my Masters in nonprofit management and leadership.  Since I left there I've tried to find similar positions to that one.  I even recently applied to a job there but of course I didn't get it.  Also while I was completing my Masters I stumbled on an subject area that really interested me and ended up doing my final research paper on the topic.  Again I've been searching for jobs around this area and there have been more misses than hits.  There are portions of my job here that I do like but I can't fully delve into like I want to for various reasons.  So I guess I have a rough idea of what I want to be when I "grow up", I just need to flesh it out a little more.

Stay tuned...

Just trying to figure out this thing called life.....

My random musings.....

Yes sometimes I vent, rant or whatever.  I hold things in waaaay too much and I have to get it out some kind of way.  Most of time I feel alone, stressed, stupid and that no one gives two shits about me.  Also in the past year or so a lot of people who were around my age have passed away.  I guess I've had a reality check lately that tomorrow truly isn't promised.  When you're young and dumb you think that you'll live "forever" and that you have time to do whatever it is "tomorrow"  So I'm working my way through putting myself in a place were I'm truly enjoying the one life that I have to live.  Yes I know that life comes with it's issues and what not, but there shouldn't be this constant feeling of a dark cloud hovering over me all the time.

(Courtesy of Microsoft)

Until next time party people...